Last week on our Fool’s journey we went over the Moon. And now it seems fitting that we go over the Sun. Especially with the Solar Eclipse on it’s way. The last few weeks before I published the Moon guide, I kept drawing the Moon. I and many of you and others I know have been feeling this looming darkness, almost a doom, a sense of ickiness. It could have something to do with the state of the world right now...ya think? I wrote about sitting in that ick and a few simple practices we can do and not to rush the process. Easier said than done, right? We can see why and no matter what “side” you are on, the shadow is present collectively. We are feeling it. Some of us are tired and we don’t want to keep fighting.
This past week, I’ve been drawing ridiculous cards about happiness. It seems trivial to try to be happy or even impossible in times like these...almost insulting.. Hilariously, this energy of happiness kind of makes me uncomfortable. I was a serious kid. I relate A LOT to Lisa Simpson if that tells you anything. One of my pastimes was to pick up litter usually alone, though I did convince a neighborhood boy to help once in awhile. I disliked opening presents in front of even my family. Obviously I hated speaking in front of people. I did not like to stand out or shine. So pulling cards like “Be Happy Now” and “The Sun” make me think...well that is for more lighthearted people. Things are too important right now, too devastating, too much doom to try to be happy...especially now...too dark, to let the sun shine. I LOVE the Sun though and as a Leo sun, of course I do, but when I see the positivity of this card, it’s hard for someone like me to take it seriously. As an effort to do what I say though, I have been working with energy I find uncomfortable. The work of positive, the light is serious work though. I would argue that it can shadow work too. So instead of sitting with the shadowy moon this week, we sit with the bright, hot sun. So here we go...here comes the Sun.
The Sun is a positive card. When you pull this card or consciously work with it, it is a sign that a dark period in life has passed. You have done the work, sat with the ick and now it’s time to focus on the light radiant life you have. It is a time for gratitude. It is a time to be in community. With the Moon we dug deep and were introspective. With the Sun, we find lightness through working with each other. The Moon is about Yin or internal, thoughtful intuitive work and the Sun is about external, active work. The Sun is like my toddler who approaches things with curiosity, not contemplation. He does and sees what happens. He does not judge his actions, just learns laughing most of the time even as he falls. This is the Sun.
Chakra: Solar Plexus (Power Center)
Your mantras as The Sun:
How can I embrace happiness in my life right now?
I can handle ups and downs much better than I used to. I accept what is in my life without getting trashed drunk to numb out. This is nearly a miracle. I am allowing myself this contentment. Even contentment in anger, sadness. I feel all my emotions. It’s a miracle I can cry. It’s a miracle I can laugh so much. I embrace my feelings now, but happiness has been the most difficult. Why? Because I worry that something bad will happen if things are too good.
The first year of my son’s life was like this. He was three months early. We spent a lot of time in the hospital, but he kept surpassing all expectations. Things that normally happened to babies as early as he was didn’t happen to him. He was just like fine...well surely that meant something horrible would happen. I think people call this waiting for the other shoe to drop. In his case, he just keeps surpassing expectations and is completely fine. I had to learn to be happy and to wallow in gratitude. You know though, something bad will happen maybe not to him but it will...that’s life, but by embracing my happiness, I can embrace my sadness, my anger...all emotions.
How can I move forward with gratitude and resolution?
I sometimes suffer from what I’ve heard called destination addiction. This is where your crave the next thing, change constantly. How ungrateful! Sure though at times my life seemed cursed so of course I wanted to move forward, but even when I look at my life now I want more more more. Sitting with what is happening now is a crucial practice for me now. I’m still not too great at it but I’m trying.
I’ve been listening to a lot of financial gurus lately because it is a struggle for me. I talked about it on anchor recently...and definitely more to come on that. One of these wonderful people is Kate Nortrup. She suggests to check your accounts daily and along with that to write three things you are grateful for. I have heard this idea of writing down gratitude everyday several times, but it didn’t do much for me. When I was forced to do it along with something that makes me uncomfortable and unsuccessful, it really started shifting something in me. Maybe you don’t have money anxiety, but you are about to go to a job interview or try something new at the gym or you’ve just watched a speech by a certain man...write three things or think three things you are grateful for right then and there. It is shifting something in me to face my discomfort (the shadow) and my joy (the light) in one sitting. Very powerful.
What place can I take in my community right now to help?
Lightwork and Shadow work, personal development, spiritual practice is completely useless if you are not using your spiritual gains and knowledge to help your community. Your community can be as small as your family, but I bet you could do some good to more people if you thought about it. It’s really easy for me to watch the news, feel hopeless, scream and cry at the screen or while walking to work…(well usually I just whisper..fuck in anger when in public….) but it’s not as easy to see what I can do about it. It’s not so easy to see how I have grown lazy or numb. Honestly, sometimes I don’t know what the hell to do, so I keep doing my work with others in mind. I keep writing things like this in hopes to educate. The weight of educating others on the backs of those who suffer the most is unfair so I am happy to share the burden as I learn more myself. How else can I help? I’m sure I can do a lot more, but my community is never too far from my spiritual practices.
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